Last week I experienced some bullshit! Someone said something shitty about my body. To put the rotten cherry on my shit sundae I experienced a bunch of awful street harassment. Those experiences were putting me in a bad place mentally. But seriously, fuck that! I decided to count some blessings:
1) Mary Widow once told me how she saw me through a window as I was walking by, and was like "Those are some Ginny Nightshade thighs!" Like that is some kind of superpower. I love it.
Sometimes my life is so full of support and positivity I almost forget that I often exist in a space where people feel like it's necessary to put me down by commenting on my body.
When someone says something awful to me, objectifying me, making me feel like I am less than; I flash to the memory, of my "Ginny Nightshade thighs," and thank my lucky stars that I'm surrounded by so much body positivity and so many amazing, strong, women!
2) Allix Mortis and I had a Gchat conversation about someone who, at a show, told me they found it inspiring to watch me perform because of my body type, specifically my belly:
(this is a chat conversation- hence the weird spacing etc.)
"Being called inspiring is important because it means that you're helping someone break out of their shell, but you're also helping them get over and reprogram all those things they've been told and socialized to think about bodies- Their own, other women's - it's a small step, but it's pretty revolutionary when you think about it."
3) Last week I was having a panic attack about an event that I'm planning. I cried about sandwiches. That is a thing that actually happened and that is nuts! Sandwiches are happiness! After Slaughterhouse Sweethearts rehearsal I vented to Belle Gunz and Fem Bones who not only rallied around me, but also offered to help me plan. They both looked at me and said "Um. Duh, of course we will help!" and I just about exploded with happiness/relief/love for sandwiches.
I'm such a lucky, super-thighed, friend-filled, lady! #bellypower
It's almost summer time and things have been heating up in the Boston burlesque scene.
This last weekend was jam packed with shows. On Friday I participated in the Bizarro Ball: A Fundraiser for Alternatease 2014.
Alternatease is a Neo-Burlesque festival and this will be its second year. Last year I was the administrative assistant and got to perform with The Glitterbombs in the opening show.
This year I applied and was accepted to perform in the TA-TA's which is the the Alterna-TEASE Awards Spectacular (Friday Night, August 15.) It's not a typical awards ceremony in that the awards are tailor made. It was an amazing show last year, and I'm preparing to BRING IT to this year's show.
Jonathan Beckley took these badass photos of my Wolf in Peep's Clothing performance on Friday night:
Saturday night I got to perform in The Old School Game Show's John Hughes-A-Palooza and it was rad!
I was a Cubic Zirconia Dancer and had my first speaking part as the Mother of the Studio Audience. I got to send the Studio Audience to prom! It was hilarious and such a fun show.
One of our numbers was an 80's medley and included, not only the dance montage from The Breakfast Club, but also this epic move stolen from Say Anything:
The theater was decked out for prom and included a photo area manned by awesome photographer Laura Hajar
You can check out more photos from the show: HERE
Sunday night I attended MASCULINITEASE: A Burlesque with Balls. The show is put on by Sirlesque, Boston's boylesque troupe.
I smiled and cheered so much my face hurt. There were fantastic special guests: Allix Mortis, Fem Bones, Maggie Maraschino, Gypsy Lux, Rogue Burlesque, and more! They added some badass lady-ness to the show.
Belle Gunz and I decided to dress in drag for the show and we looked so friggin handsome. It was the flattest my chest has been since 5th grade and pretty goddamn liberating. I think my drag persona will be making more appearances in the future.
My favorite number was Allix Mortis's. She did a powerful piece about the verbal abuse she's faced by depicting the words on a projection screen. It was tough to read and intense to watch her build more and more tension on the stage. She reclaimed some of those words so that they became words of power, and she honored #YesAllWomen. She got a standing ovation and brought tears to my eyes. It was a fantastic piece.
The finale of the show moved me in a different way.... jumping out of my seat because the dudes from Sirlesque did a tribute to the The Backstreet Boys that had my 90's-child-self losing my shit!
*Fun Fact: I'm fucking color blind and no one noticed my facial hair was purple until I left my apartment. It's an unintentional homage to Prince! *
As for when you can see me next:
REVENGE OF THE ROBOT BATTLE NUNS!
Guys, this show is going to be INSANE.
We've been in rehearsal for months, we've been toiling, we've been costuming, we've been finding the perfect mixture of ingredients to create the most realistic looking vomit....don't fucking miss this!
Announcements and musings!